I have been watching a lot of web series in free time. Very gripping and intriguing stuff on Youtube I must say. One such series was a story of the wife of a neurosurgeon. I wont go into the story now but will go straight away to what triggered my thoughts for this article.
Scene: The wife is cleaning the window pane when the hubby enters. "What are you busy with?" he asks. "Have been trying to remove this mark using everything possible but it doesn't seem to get cleaned." she says frustrated. "You know it is called OCD." he tries to divert her. He goes on, "You know what leads to this Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?" he waits for her to respond but she does not. "The person always feels that there is something that is not right in their lives and they keep correcting other things to make things as right as possible"
This was enough to get my mind machine to start working. I'm sure Sany, Bhai, Jiju and Hubby will smile while reading this but we have a long term connection with OCD. It runs in our blood as heredity. I am an OCD person myself. I am not sure about the others but it quite applies on me. There is something in the back of mind that does not seem right and I tend to correct other things which might not be really incorrect.
I slept with this thought and the next morning was stunned to realize that this condition would only worsen with time and age. Also I doubt I have unknowingly and unwantedly passed some of it to Cherith. It scares me when I think what he would be correcting. Given the fact that I now know, I must concentrate on helping myself. What is it that is not right with me? Well I can count 10 things per day. But is that truly the question to be asked?
With all the things I write about and all the thoughts I share, I am clear that nothing is perfect. No situation, no time, no person, no relationship. If it was so, where would be the scope for variety? No surprises, no shocks, no experiments, no adventure, no success, no failure, no learning, no growth, no day different than one another.. In short it would be a spiceless stagnant life and who loves a life like that? So now I have decided to sometimes alter things as per situations and get altered sometimes.
To all the OCD's like me, Stop and think what you are losing while correcting that which is least important. I know it is difficult to suddenly change our habits but it is way better than suffering with some very serious issues later in life. Take a look around and you will find everybody will be short of something (according to your parameters) To hell with the parameters, they don't make us what we are. Our struggles and experiences do.
Imperfections may not always be unpleasant. Trust me on that. I am living with one since a while...
Cheers!
God Bless!!
CHS
Scene: The wife is cleaning the window pane when the hubby enters. "What are you busy with?" he asks. "Have been trying to remove this mark using everything possible but it doesn't seem to get cleaned." she says frustrated. "You know it is called OCD." he tries to divert her. He goes on, "You know what leads to this Obsessive Compulsive Disorder?" he waits for her to respond but she does not. "The person always feels that there is something that is not right in their lives and they keep correcting other things to make things as right as possible"
This was enough to get my mind machine to start working. I'm sure Sany, Bhai, Jiju and Hubby will smile while reading this but we have a long term connection with OCD. It runs in our blood as heredity. I am an OCD person myself. I am not sure about the others but it quite applies on me. There is something in the back of mind that does not seem right and I tend to correct other things which might not be really incorrect.
I slept with this thought and the next morning was stunned to realize that this condition would only worsen with time and age. Also I doubt I have unknowingly and unwantedly passed some of it to Cherith. It scares me when I think what he would be correcting. Given the fact that I now know, I must concentrate on helping myself. What is it that is not right with me? Well I can count 10 things per day. But is that truly the question to be asked?
With all the things I write about and all the thoughts I share, I am clear that nothing is perfect. No situation, no time, no person, no relationship. If it was so, where would be the scope for variety? No surprises, no shocks, no experiments, no adventure, no success, no failure, no learning, no growth, no day different than one another.. In short it would be a spiceless stagnant life and who loves a life like that? So now I have decided to sometimes alter things as per situations and get altered sometimes.
To all the OCD's like me, Stop and think what you are losing while correcting that which is least important. I know it is difficult to suddenly change our habits but it is way better than suffering with some very serious issues later in life. Take a look around and you will find everybody will be short of something (according to your parameters) To hell with the parameters, they don't make us what we are. Our struggles and experiences do.
Imperfections may not always be unpleasant. Trust me on that. I am living with one since a while...
Cheers!
God Bless!!
CHS
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